KAZUO ISHIGURO

Never Let Me Go - fragments
 

She went on gazing at us for a moment, then took a deep breath. "Within Hailsham itself, whenever this talk started up, I made sure to stamp it out good and proper. But as for what students said after they'd left us, what could I do? In the end, I came to believe--and Marie-Claude believes this too, don't you, darling?--I came to believe that this rumour, it's not just a single rumour. What I mean is, I think it's one that gets created from scratch over and over. You go to the source, stamp it out, you'll not stop it starting again elsewhere. I came to this conclusion and ceased to worry about it. Marie-Claude never did worry about it. Her view was: ‘If they're so foolish, let them believe it.' Oh yes, don't show me that sour face of yours. That's been your view of it from the beginning. After many years of it, I came not exactly to the same viewpoint. But I began to think, well, perhaps I shouldn't worry. It's not my doing, after all. And for the few couples who get disappointed, the rest will never put it to the test anyway. It's something for them to dream about, a little fantasy. What harm is there? But for the two of you, I can see this doesn't apply. You are serious. You've thought carefully. You've hoped carefully. For students like you, I do feel regret. It gives me no pleasure at all to disappoint you. But there it is."

 

Alina Blanaru

Kazuo Ishiguro
 

A continuat sa se uite insistent la noi, dupa care a respirat adanc. " La Hailsham, oricand incepea o astfel de discutie, aveam grija sa o curm inca de la bun inceput. Insa in ceea ce priveste studentii si ce spuneau dupa ce plecau de la noi, ce-as fi putut sa fac? In cele din urma, am ajuns sa cred - asa cum crede si Marie-Claude, nu-i asa, draga? - am ajuns sa cred ca acest zvon nu este doar un caz izolat. Vreau sa spun ca eu cred ca este un lucru care se naste o data cu fiecare generatie. Mergi la sursa, ii pui capat, dar nu il vei opri sa apara in alta parte. La aceasta concluzie am ajuns eu si am incetat sa ma mai ingrijorez in legatura cu asta. Marie-Claude nu si-a facut niciodata griji in privinta asta. Punctul ei de vedere era ca: " Daca sunt atat de prosti, lasa-i sa creada." Ba da, nu te mai uita asa de acru la mine. Asta a fost punctul tau de vedere de la inceput. Dupa atitia ani in care l-am auzit, n-am ajuns chiar la acelasi punct de vedere. Insa am inceput sa ma gandesc ca poate nu ar trebui sa-mi fac griji. La urma urmelor, nu sunt eu de vina. Doar cateva cupluri raman dezamagite, pentru ca ceilalti nici nu vor incerca vreodata. E un lucru la care ei pot visa, o mica fantezie. Ce este rau in asta? Insa in cazul vostru acest lucru nu e valabil. Voi sunteti seriosi. V-ati gandit cu grija. Ati sperat din tot sufletul. Pentru studenti ca voi chiar simt parere de rau. Nu imi face nici cea mai mica placere sa va dezamagesc. Insa asta e.